I'm listening to Melissa's Etheridge's newest album "The Awakening". It's really good. It's helping me through this time. I love when an album or book or TV show finds its way to you at the right time. It's good magic.


I've got my nuchal ultrasound on Tuesday. I'm taking a full day off. I am scared. I think I might feel more confident if I had major pregnancy symptoms but they've been so minimal lately and I have no baby bump. The (private) clinic that I have to go to for this ultrasound makes me feel stressed. I'm not sure exactly why. I guess it's because I have no relationships with anyone there. Deep breath. I need to refocus to the present moment. I get going so fast with work that I think it takes me out of the moment. Always planning ahead or feeling behind. Life of a teacher.


I'm going to take this weekend to be nurturing to myself. To be thankful. I'm so thankful for my husband. That came so naturally and we have a great relationship. I am thankful for my parents who are less than perfect but perfectly themselves. I am thankful for the new connections I've made at work with other teachers. I am thankful for music and for magic moments with kids and students. I am thankful for this incredible fall day.


I want to take long walks alone in nature. I want a puppy. I want to paint. I want lots of hugs. I want this baby. I want to worry less. I want to be more present. I want to cry more. I want to read more and enjoy all forms of entertainment. I want to go to the Art Gallery and see plays. I want to see huge spectacles. I want to go to the farmer's market and buy yummy food.

What's your "I want" list?