I haven't written in awhile. It's been busy and I'm exhausted. The end of the school year has been....well, eventful. Any children with behavior problems seem to get wiggy at this time of year. I totally understand and I'm sure I'm a little wiggy as well. Only 1.5 more days of school. It can't come soon enough.

I've been fairly even keel about the ttc thing. I still get sad about my losses. Especially when I'm around very pregnant women or newborn babies. It's the pregnant women that still get to me. It's an irrational feeling...really, I think the feelings come from the instinctual part of myself. It is a not very pleasant mixture of anger, jealousy and despair. It leaves me feeling weak. I believe I should be able to overcome those feelings but that's not the way it works.

Must really go to bed. I want to write more but I've got to hit the sack before 11pm unless I want to crash and burn in 1.5 day.

Goodnight and goodluck.