The Complete Egg

The before, during and after of a molar pregnancy, with a side of chemo and a 12 month wait before ttc. And most recently: experience of a healthy pregnancy.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

7 more months

not that I'm counting or anything.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

My Report Card

Blogging C-
Self-care B+
Relationship A
Work-life B
Family C+
Spirituality B
Exercise C+ (walking to and from skytrain each day)
Me-time C
Friends B

I haven't been blogging for awhile (sigh). I miss it. I've been kept very busy by work. Teaching can be all-consuming.

I've been pretty well for the most part. I feel out of balance this week. There is so much happening right now. It's too busy. I feel wound up this week. Hence, I am not sleeping too well. 11:27pm. Damn. I'm going to be tired tomorrow for our Symphony field trip.

M is such a light sleeper and was complaining of my tossing and turning. Finally I got up. Happy Valentine's to me. I shouldn't complain. We had a very nice time celebrating my birthday and an early Valentine's day this past weekend. We went to Whistler and went skiing. Not sure that I'd go running back. Not really my cup of tea. We had fun though, being together.

The trip kind of made me feel depleted this week. I guess it was the drive and all the frigging around with ski equipment etc. Then we come back and the laundry needs doing and grocery shopping has to be done. Oh, woe is me. Life is so hard, I only get to go skiing on the weekend.

I got my period today. 29 days since the last one. Every period now is an event. It tells me that my hcg levels are still zero. I did have a blood test last week and I'm waiting for the results. Don't feel any stress about the waiting, thank goodness.

I find that I'm okay being around pregnant ladies now (there are two at my school). However, I don't go out of my way to ask them about their pregnancy. Not interested. Really not. I feel okay about this too. No guilt.

Have been wondering if it might do me good to go for a therapy session. Just to let any pressure out that may be building. I don't want to be ignoring my feelings. I don't think I am. I have been focussing on self-care quite a bit these days - yoga, massage, honor the goddess days. I'm taking the skytrain everyday now and it makes a huge difference to my stress levels. HUGE. I can't believe what a difference it is making to my life.

Working full-time does not leave enough time for me-time. I'm really feeling that right now. I think that's why I can't fall asleep tonight because I'm just craving alone time and reflection time. I know that I'll be dragging my ass tomorrow though. How ladylike am I? Not very. I must say I have quite the potty mouth.

What else can I say? I'm not in misery. I'm happy most days. I love my class, although there are some challenging kids. I continue to learn and get better. Report cards are coming up soon and then it will be spring break already. After that, time flies until the end of the school year and then it's summer. I'm trying not to get ahead of myself but I will be glad when this wait -time is finished. It's awful to feel like something is imposed on you.

I'm out of things to say. And I'm still not tired. Off to steam some milk and lie down.

Happy Love Day everyone.